I didn’t fall in love for the first time until I was 28 years old, and although the way I met her was odd, my ex-girlfriend and I did meet because of the people in the neighborhood. At that time, although I also wanted to fall in love, but to meet the sexual desire is my main purpose, so play the nearby people play very crazy, in my opinion, the nearby people is dating with sex. I use different chatting routines for different people, those who look more general I did not chat for a long time will begin to guide to the sexual topic, if not chatting that forget, for some other look more literary or I am more interested in the girl will not do so, treat them is normal chat, in the spirit of the long line to catch a big fish mentality, if you can develop into a male and female friends on the best. The former girlfriend is one of the many people I know near me, at first glance she does not look beautiful, face flesh, friends in the circle of photos to look at is p quite serious, but there is a bridesmaid photo caught my attention, the photo of her tits look great, and the other two bridesmaids to form a sharp contrast, when I thought if I could be touched that how good ah.
At first I was patient and chatted with her normally, sometimes about their favorite movies, sometimes about her fitness. Once she told me she had more than 150 pounds, I did not believe it at the time, although I had never seen a full body photo, but look at her circle of friends photos are not so fat, and later proved that photos can really be deceiving, even if you do not take off clothes you still do not think she is so heavy, until I touched the meat on her stomach when I felt that she did not lie to me. I broke through with her one night, I said my eyes are quite small, she sent a video chat over and said she wanted to see how small my eyes are, so we began to chat. I am a rather boring person, not much to say, but she is very good at finding topics, and she feels comfortable with her video, she is very lively, chatting also showed interest in me, so I do not have to keep thinking about the topic, so after two nights of talking, I think and she should have a play. But I did not expect the second night after chatting she actually sent a few of her nude photos over, to be honest I was quite surprised, because it is the first time a woman so active to send nude photos to me, after she also told me not to think too much, you say this is not obviously called me on her well. The first time I came to my rented room, I started to touch her, and when I felt the fat on her stomach, I felt a wave of disgust, actually so fat, but I thought I had to finish playing the gun, so I finished it in tears. I found that although she was fat and her vagina was a bit loose, she was really comfortable having sex with her, her tits were big, and her tongue was very sensual, while the other one had a good figure, but her vagina was tighter, and she often ejaculated very quickly, and this one was often about the people nearby, so I gave up.
The first time I saw a woman, I told her I hadn’t been in a relationship, but I had been dating and looking for a woman, because I didn’t want to develop her into an object, she didn’t tell me she had been dating, just that there had been a one-night stand, and that she had two foreign boyfriends before, but they all split up, and I didn’t feel anything wrong, I thought she and I were The first time about. One day she suddenly said to me on WeChat that we try to be boyfriend and girlfriend, I heard a little confused, thinking that we are sex buddies ah, but also as boyfriend and girlfriend? The actual fact that she is so fat, it’s too humiliating to take out, in addition to she actually does not have labia minora, there may be no labia minora protection below it is easy to break the skin, I worry that she may not be able to have children, so I told her my concerns, she said she did not know if she could be thin, but she would go to the gym. Of course, she also has its own merits, is the character I quite like, and she will not be bored together, so I still hold the idea of trying to decide and her together, thinking that I have not been in love anyway, to increase a relationship experience is also quite good, the big deal is to break up, then it turns out that I am falling deeper and deeper, unable to extricate themselves.
The process of falling in love is sweet and quarrelsome, she will dress up, although fat, but hands and feet but thin, and I am also the more I look at her, the better, maybe this is the lover’s eye out of the West it. Since she sent me nude photos, I concluded that her phone should also be, later I asked about this she also admitted, I am a little dissatisfied but did not ask her to delete. I found out that she likes black rap and often shares some black music in her circle of friends, and a lot of the songs she shares are very sexually explicit (which I also found out after the breakup by looking up the lyrics of the music she shared), which surprised me, as few girls like this kind of stuff and share it. She also told me she used to drink and smoke when she was hanging out with foreigners and smoked pot a few times, but not anymore, which gave me a big shock that I had been a good girl since I was a kid, but at the time I thought it was no big deal as long as she changed. She is also very playful on top of sex, dildos jumping balls and what not before I have played, I have tried all positions with her, except she is too fat some positions can not be completed (in fact, there are not a few positions), once she also took the initiative to lick my ass, at that time I was stunned, suddenly I feel that I am the one being developed. During the relationship I was honest at first and tried to control myself to say goodbye to the past, but inside I still couldn’t accept her tank-like body. Can you imagine what it’s like to have two piles of flesh stacked on top of each other on a woman who hasn’t had a baby yet? When making love, she was on top of me when I was a little out of breath, but even so I still did not intend to break up, I think fat people are potential stocks, fat can exercise more and slim down, the fact that I was too naive, she and I together not only did not slim, and even fitness are three days to fish and two days to sunbathe. Slowly, I don’t know if the dog can’t change to eat shit or out of dissatisfaction with her, I still talk to people nearby, one of them almost got it, at the time I was both excited and self-condemnation inside. I know this is very scummy, on the one hand I like to be with her, on the other hand I am not too happy with her fat and genital deformities. Finally after the New Year within a few days she broke up with me, at this time I began to let her go, and she was soft-hearted and I compounded, this time I was determined not to play near people, good to her, and I did. After that we split up several times, and gradually not too hopeful about this relationship. Once, I looked at her phone and found a few screenshots in her recycle bin, the content is actually in the stranger and other men chatting slut, some surprise, and some anger, because every time and her sex she can female top position move to orgasm, I also did not fuck her to orgasm, so I asked her if it is because of the sex life she chatting slut, she replied because work is too empty, think I do not care much about her so do, but In view of my previous such behavior, I chose to forgive her, after which she changed her cell phone password, the beautiful name said not to let me think blindly, I was unhappy, but there was nothing I could do. Later, after the breakup I thought about it, but this is an excuse, the fundamental reason or the previous so hooked up with men hooked up with used to, as the so-called dog can not change to eat shit, but I also half a catty.
Later, she and I came to the point of talking about marriage, for some reason, she looked for me to quarrel, I finally could not stand it, and she proposed a breakup. I accidentally saw the diary she wrote when I was moving, and the words in it shocked me. It turns out that she and her ex-boyfriend are cheating on each other, and often use the nearby people to meet foreigners (feel that she has a love for foreigners), and she also gave several foreign friends mouth over, but also with the nearby people about. The fact that she gave her body and money for the foreigner, but could not get their love, reminds me that this is not the legendary easy girl? All these she recorded in her diary one by one, at this point I understood the reason why she could accept my past. Then once I went to her house to ask for a compound, after talking a few sentences her attitude made me feel hopeless about the compound, I simply broke the pot and told her I read her diary, at once her teardrops flowed out, she asked me back “Is that a human being writing? The moment I realized that the two of us would never be able to do this again, I told her to stop looking for her. But I really want her, or shy an old face on the WeChat to ask for a compound, when my feelings are very complex feel like they are particularly cheap, on the one hand I can not control themselves to think of her, on the other hand I think I can not accept her past, of course, the result is that she does not want to compound, and I will not be so insensitive to continue to pester her.
Maybe I’m not good enough, no girl can look at me, so that’s why I’m so obsessed with my first love. To sum it up, although I know I am not a good man, she is not a good woman, but we really loved each other, but each other’s passing. I hope she can live the life she wants and my future partner and I can be faithful to each other.
