I am an ordinary mature male, more than 30 years old, working in the Jiangsu region, not far from Shanghai. I’ve been in a depressed mood lately and have something to say, so I thought this would be the most appropriate place to post it.
The reason for the depression is that I am eager for enjoyable sex, eager for a long time. Unfortunately, my wife is sexually indifferent, and I am often left out, over time, a conditioned reflex is formed, when they have a need every time, the first thought is not their wife, but the computer. Sometimes when I go to bed at night, I imagine how wonderful it would be to have a woman climb on top of me, caress me, and let me penetrate. But when I think about it, I have a wife, and this kind of thing should have been normal, right? Every time I think about it, I can’t stop laughing. Sometimes I can’t help but watch AV and jerk off, but when I jerk off, I suddenly realize that I have a wife, so I don’t have to do that. Good loser ah, so cheap ah, so helpless ah, hahahaha, I do not want this, but why things will fall to this point?
In fact, I have quietly looked for a young lady, my economic conditions are fair, you can find more expensive women, young girls. But this is really not the right way for me. Once, I called a 19-year-old girl with upturned breasts, smooth skin, pink nipples seem to drip so fresh. But no matter how young the body, after all, is out for sale, so she told me not to lick the cunt oral sex, and can not deep kiss, and of course I will not do so. But when she stripped naked and stood in front of me, I found I couldn’t get hard, I was impotent. I was shocked, because this kind of thing rarely happens. The good thing is that I got hard again after a simple treatment, put on a condom, and kind of finished the intercourse with caution.
Since then, I have never looked for a lady, because I found that I do not just lack sex, at the same time, I also lack love.
Some women always like to separate sex and love, such as my wife is so, she feels that sex and love are two things that do not go together at all. But I don’t think so from the bottom of my heart. I’ve always felt that without sex, there are times when it’s hard for me to tell if the woman who claims to love me so much loves me or not. The nanny will also do the laundry and cooking, will also be warm and fuzzy, but people just complete the task, just to afford the salary. If we talk about life care alone, hiring a nanny is much cheaper than keeping a wife. The woman takes care of the man in the house, in a sense, is also a social responsibility. If there is no sex, the woman is just fulfilling her social obligations, or really in love with his man, who can say?
Slowly I began to understand why many people divorce because of sex. The more you do, the more you love, the more you do, making love to make love, it makes sense. In fact, I am not asking my woman how beautiful she looks, but I want my woman, like a real gentle woman. Countless times, countless times, countless times, I have imagined that there is a woman I like, she is clean, white, wash herself white, and then crawl into my bed, kiss me, caress me, and me 69 style, suck my rod, I can bury my head between her open thighs, carefully suck her pussy lips and clitoris, and then hold her tightly, put the rod in as much as you want, the most painful, the most painful sex once and for all. I understand that this is not an excessive demand, a normal man can have such a life, but this thing is really so difficult for me, so difficult, every time I can only masturbate to the computer, why is this ah
In fact, I also learned through some channels that there are many cases like mine. Some seem to be very harmonious couples, actually can two or three years are not intimate once. Some are because the woman is cold so that the man aggrieved, and some are because the man can not let the woman suffer. Such couples, most of them have families, old people, children, and I, most of them choose to suffer in silence, as long as the children are good, family harmony, it is okay. The rest do not think about.
However, life is already difficult, we can make their own days easier? Not so hard can you?
Previously, every time I thought of lovers, outside the woman such topics, I will feel and moral conscience is contrary, always feel that they owe the family, sorry wife, conscience will suffer a great burden. But now, I will not think so, because I slowly began to understand that there are many very good women, they are healthy, mature, gentle and kind, but they are also suffering from the same torture as me, they are the same as me, and do not want their families to be hurt, just want to make the day not so difficult, make yourself a little better, a little happier. If I come across such a woman, I think maybe I will just let things happen. The day is already very difficult, can we not be a little easier, not so hard can it?