Hello, I’m a 17-year-old girl. I think I still have some strange issues because of what happened to me, and I haven’t been able to tell anyone. This happened when I was 12 years old, and I couldn’t tell my family because I was scared. After this incident, I completely shut myself off. My uncle was married and was around 45 years old at the time, though I’m not sure of his exact age. Since we didn’t have a summer house, my parents sent me to stay with my uncle for vacation. This was normal for me because they worked during the week and only visited on weekends. At first, I thought my uncle really cared about me because he would buy me any toy or candy I wanted. During the vacation, there were some strange touches, but it was hard to understand them before he began to molest me. For example, he always applied my sunscreen. The first time he molested me was when my aunt was with her friends. I was in a room, feeling tired and almost falling asleep. I remember him covering my mouth and kissing my entire body. Then he started undressing me. I couldn’t resist; I was just a 12-year-old child. I only cried. It hurt a lot when he penetrated me. I couldn’t do anything; I had to endure his abuse and rape. That night was very upsetting and made me feel ashamed of myself. I couldn’t sleep until morning. The next day, I took a shower, scrubbing my body with a washcloth while crying, feeling dirty. In the morning, I asked my aunt to call my parents to come and get me. I didn’t explain why; I was scared and believed his threats. They said they could come on the weekend. Even though there were only two days left, it felt very long. The next day, my uncle must have sent my aunt somewhere because he came to me, telling me not to tell anyone, and undressed me again. He told me to take his penis in my mouth, but as soon as I did, I felt like vomiting. He ruined my last day too. Since then, I’ve struggled with anxiety, felt ashamed, and couldn’t tell anyone.
Even years later, I only get aroused by rape porn. I have a good physique, and I enjoy it when someone harasses me. Maybe it’s a result of trauma, but I like it.
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