It’s been a day since I got back from her place. I still feel like I can’t hold my head up and my heart can’t beat. Although just now still on the phone, but in addition to the hurt and heart blocked nothing else, I know, between us is considered finished, so pick up the front mood, slowly put on, tell people, although there is love, but more prerequisites, more too many difficulties, perhaps there is no perfect ….
She, a silly-looking woman, not beautiful, the body is average. The income is barely manageable, it is worth mentioning that her husband is quite handsome! — I peeked at the ID card.
We are college classmates, two classes across a wall, but the content of the study is a bull’s eye. But we often see each other, in the hallway, in front of the building or the toilet. I knew she liked me at that time, and I didn’t hate her, so I became friends, chatting together, bragging together, and occasionally having a meal. Later, no later, then is the graduation, apart!
Three years ago, tiktok suddenly received a message, said she got married, polite blessing two sentences, left a phone call did not play. The fourth year on, my feelings but a problem, which sad ah, can not mention it. Like running away from the city, accidentally drifted to her place. One day I suddenly received a call from her, telling her that she was very close, I could hear that she was very happy, and I was looking forward to meeting her. In the middle of dinner, suddenly she said she wanted a divorce ……
I know, there is a game!!! After dinner I asked for a hotel room and was refused. I later learned that I was not too direct, but the lack of a catalyst —- wine. After we went to drink, and then drink again, to the bed she actually took off a pair of panties left and then not take off, let me grind the mouth, panting like a cow. The panties are like a moral, crossed in front of me is difficult to cross, at least one night is!!!! After that I used to scream that I had to carry a small pair of scissors with me when I slept with her in order to cut open the damned and difficult panties that wouldn’t come off.
In the months that followed, we sat together like old men dying, not moving, staring at each other. Or making mad love like first lovers. We drank together and missed each other. But in the middle of several unpleasant is also unforgettable, such as very happy when his husband called; very lonely when she could not be with me at night; the street as strangers walking; night we have been insisting not to call; inexplicable sad ….. At this point, I simply can not distinguish between love and sex. I just feel not alone, very happy!
After that we separated, met, separated, and met again. Because after all, do not live in a city. At first I felt very uncomfortable, and then I missed it, and then I actually began to suspect. Yes, I’m in love with her! This is such a bad thing, worse than getting a woman pregnant!!!! The middle of the night is very miss when you can not call, not to mention the text message, call during the day when she is very busy, deal with two sentences after no longer waiting for a call, and embarrassed to call again, and then sit down to think, she seems to have not taken the initiative to call me a few days. Once I couldn’t resist calling, she was actually in the bar, it was more than two o’clock in the morning, and found that she was actually lying to me several times.
Because of this relationship, I can not ask her what, but my love is so selfish, love since exclusive, I certainly can not be an exception, but this can not be applied to her, which I later understood. She, sexually active, the relationship is not beautiful, before I always feel that I need an excess in the relationship, I do not know, she is in the relationship is not! In the process of constant consumption, my feelings for her are spreading and growing, while she is not, we just keep having sex …… She is venting!!!
The other day, we have a director here, for someone else’s wife and a third person fought, a time to become a laughing stock for others, but I have not been for it, because I understand him, really ~! Yes, he should not have such feelings for other people’s wives, other people’s wives just need a kind of indulgence or relief or trust, but he is to pay the same feelings as the real money. But I really understand his feelings about which woman, because I do the same.
I rant so much, do not want to explain what, just I gradually understand, feelings are not for squandering, when you are deeply in love to see the object, pay most of the time is not equal to the return, especially when you face a married woman, she may be in the catharsis, may be in the indulgence, but you can not do so, because you pay is the real emotions, when the loss of emotions enveloped in the body, will You can’t stop!!!
In addition, when you are dating together, the bond that holds your feelings is wine, I advise you to give up as soon as possible, because no matter who, are irresponsible, we can do whatever we want after drinking, but once sober, will find it is so ridiculous, so unrealistic, regardless of what was said in advance or vows. This is irresponsible for both parties, especially for you!!!!
No more, we shouldn’t fall in love with someone else’s wife …….