Lost Dreams of the Corridor Bridge
Reunion, reunion, breaking up a pair is a pair. This is a prophetic saying.
It’s been 10 years since I met Chen Chunjiang again, and like all first-time lovers, he and I haven’t seen each other since we graduated from college. Time is generous to men, he still looks the same, cotton T-shirt, jeans, the lines on his face are still hard. If he has changed, it is for the better. I don’t love these reunions. I know my hair is old-fashioned behind my head, my waist is no longer taut, I have children, I’ve become a middle-aged woman, and the person I was back then is long gone.
But that time, ghostly, I went. Then I saw my youth in his eyes.
The first time I saw the company, I was able to get to the top of the list.
After the meal, in the coffee bar, we were deliberately arranged to sit together by our old classmates.
The first time I saw the company, I was in love with Chen Chunjiang, and his kindness to me was almost universally known. It was the question of whether to stay or go at graduation that finally separated us.
“I was transferred into Beijing earlier this year.” He said.
I said, “Well,” and my heart skipped a beat. The company’s main business is to provide a wide range of products and services to the public. I didn’t dare look at him, and I kept my head down.
“Are you okay?” he asked. He asked. “Yes, I’m fine.” I replied. “How old is the baby?” “Two years old, very skinny.” “Take care of your health, I heard your unit is quite tiring, if you can quit, don’t do it, go home and stay. You love to draw, don’t you?”
I smile.
I’m not sure where the brushes are, but he still remembers them.
With the light and the wine slightly sour, we chatted softly about trivial matters. I don’t know why, but this kind of care and ambiguity actually makes me want to shed tears. The company’s main business is to provide a wide range of products and services. Chen Chunjiang’s eyes were crystal clear and he said, “I’ll send you.” I whispered, “If you really want me to have a good time, don’t send it. Goodbye.”
He didn’t say a word and drove off. I was a little dizzy, a little excited, stumbling along the road, with the past in front of me: Chen Chunjiang helping me turn on the water, us feeding ice cream in the small cafeteria, running in circles on the playground, tightly interlocked fingers …… turned the corner and I froze, his car parked there, my first boyfriend standing there smiling weakly at me. I smiled weakly. At that moment, I actually felt swept away.
I didn’t go home that night.
I woke up at 7 a.m. with a splitting headache in my hotel suite, and Chen Chunjiang whispered in my ear, “You’re still the same as you were 10 years ago.” I suddenly came to my senses. This man was so deliberate, so calculated, so comfortable with his troops and smiles all the way, that I was destined to suffer a great loss.
Fleeing the hotel like a defeated man, I was about to get into a cab when someone behind me called out, “Sister-in-law?”
I was frozen in place. My sister-in-law is a lobby manager at this hotel.
Seven out of seven
All day I was in the office, my mind in turmoil. I was in a panic in the morning and lied to my sister-in-law about coming to the hotel to find a drunken colleague. But I knew she didn’t believe me. She was able to check the room records, and even Chen Chunjiang was still in that room.
I thought of Han Zhi, my husband. We’ve been married for seven years, and no matter how much we’ve stumbled, there have always been happy, happy times. I thought about how we had known each other for so many years, and how we had saved together from nothing to today’s house and car; I thought about my parents, who were both aging; I thought about our daughter, Doudin, who was only two years old …… Remorse came like a tidal wave from all directions. I didn’t want to betray my husband, but I just couldn’t help it.
I got a text from Hanzhi at noon with just two words: go home.
Not only was Han Zhi at home, but my sister-in-law was there too, and my knees went weak. The company’s main business is to provide a wide range of products and services to its customers. Even I know that at this moment my hands and feet are stiff and my eyes are drooping, clearly a sign that I am ready to lie.
He yelled at me, “Isn’t that right?”
I had nothing to say. I had absolutely no way to respond. I knew I was wrong, but how should I redeem myself. I couldn’t hear or see, and my whole body was numb. I was so happy to see you.
He had never hit me before, and this was the first time. “Bitch!” He scolded me, “You bitch, I’m divorcing you.” He pulled open his travel bag and desperately shoved his clothes inside. I suddenly understood and fell to my knees at once, I cried out, “I’m sorry husband, I didn’t mean to do it, you forgive me this time, I was just drunk.”
He ignored me, staring around the room with bloodshot eyes like a trapped animal. The little aunt looked at me with contempt from the side. The nanny was already stunned holding Doudin.
I couldn’t think of anything else, I jumped on him and hugged him, I said don’t go, I can’t live without you. I let out a loud cry, I have never been so embarrassed in my life. The company’s main business is to provide a wide range of products and services to the public.
Han Zhi still left, he slammed the door open, my nails were pulled over, but I couldn’t feel the pain. I stood in the middle of the room in fear, my daughter’s panicked cries in my ears.
What followed was tedious to say the least. The youngest aunt was there, and the affair could not be hidden. The first time I saw the company, I was able to get to the bottom of it. The company’s main business is to provide a wide range of products and services to the market.
For the first time in her life, my mother slapped me in the face. The first time in my life, my mother slapped me in the face. She scolded me for being shameless and wearing human skin for nothing, and the meeting ended with her pleading with Hanzhi. My mother begged him not to divorce for the sake of the two old people and for the sake of the children. These seven years, my parents love him like a son, and Han Zhi finally did not speak again.
All four old people left, and my parents carried away our daughter. Their backs were haggard and I was groundless. I thought he was going to forgive me, but in the end he didn’t say a word and hugged the bed quilt and slept in the study.
Never forgive
The days were like living in hell. I was so genuinely repentant, although Han Chi refused to say anything more to me after that day. I dragged Chen Chunjiang’s cell phone number to the blacklist, which was just a slip of the tongue, a greedy youthful slip of the tongue. The cheating wasn’t so good, and I refuse to even think about him anymore.
I did my best to make up for all the work I had missed over the past 7 years because of work, forcing a smile every day, making breakfast myself in the morning, and rushing home as quickly as possible at night. I don’t stay at the damn job anymore, I don’t even take time off for gym and beauty, what’s more important than my home. If he forgives me, I think I’ll spend my life being grateful.
Han Zhi ignored me and came home late every day, and I knew he was trying to avoid me. I wanted to see him, but I was afraid he would come back, and I didn’t even know how to put my hands and feet under his kind of gaze.
Finally, on his birthday, I took the afternoon off, prepared an elaborate dinner, and waited for Hanzhi. The company’s main business is to provide a wide range of products and services to the market. Looking at the table, at the wine on the table, he smiled, and he said, “You drank this wine that night?”
I froze for a moment, and when I realized what he was talking about, my head exploded.
He slammed the bottle on the floor, cursing as he did so, “I told you to drink it, I told you adulterous couple to drink it.” I cried and ran back to my bedroom.
The next morning before I got up, he came knocking on the door and asked me to go to work with him. I thought he was apologizing for last night, and I just said, “So early?” The first time I saw him, he said, “I don’t know if I’m going to be able to get to work.
I was choked up and helpless, but who could I blame? I didn’t even have any tears to shed.
From that night onwards Han Zhi finally spoke to me, and his words even seemed too much. Every day he went out with me, and by the end of the day I hadn’t even cleared my desk and his car was already waiting downstairs. He kept a close eye on me, but whenever I tried to talk to him about something in a pretentious way, he would circle back to that.
What was better about him than me? Is he better than me in bed or does he pay you more than I do? How many times have you had sex? How long behind my back? Blah, blah, blah, endless ridicule and sarcasm. I cried and begged him not to mention it again, I begged him to spare me, I was really only so wrong, my heart wobbled a little that night, but for this family for him, I am still loyal from the heart, we still have a long way to go, don’t mention it again.
He looked at me coldly and said, “I caught you this time, but what about the ones I didn’t?” I looked into his eyes, and I finally knew he was hating me. My mother used to use marriage and swimming to compare the relationship between marriage and love, hot love, like the courage to move forward in the waves, to be the passionate surge; and once into marriage, like two old people walking on the beach, need to support each other, rely on each other. I think, should not add a mutual forgiveness? The company’s main goal is to provide the best possible service to its customers.
A man’s willingness to come home and confess after cheating is called the return of the prodigal son, a thousand dollars. And what about women?
The company’s main goal is to provide a platform for the development of a new generation of companies that will be able to offer a wide range of products and services.
Han Zhi and I eventually divorced, five months after I cheated on him. In the novel “A Dream on the Bridge,” Francesca’s husband says to his wife at the time of his resignation: “Darling, I want you to know that I know you had your own dreams, and I’m sorry I couldn’t make them come true for you. You know how much I love you.
They forgave each other, and I didn’t have that luck.