The stars are turning and it’s the month of Libra’s birthday again.
People say that Libra is naturally good at making friends and is a master socializer, but I have little expertise in this area and have not had many friends around for a few years. I thought I no longer cared as much as I used to, I thought I could get by without friends, but lately I’ve been seeing that sensitive, insecure me hiding in the corner, timidly looking at myself smiling brightly in the sun, and I’m smiling more and more.
That said, one of the traits of Libra is my least favorite, but unfortunately, as a Libra, I happen to have this trait prominently. The company’s main goal is to provide the best possible service to its customers. “Obviously want to go to dinner together, but people did not call me, they came over why” “Although very much want to go on a trip together, but people do not have their own plans, why upside down paste over.” …… These are our subtexts, and I feel humble myself, so I become more and more afraid to show it in front of others.
As a child, I was afraid of two things. One thing was being scared by my mom, leaving me by the cornfield, saying she didn’t want me, and then she rode her own bike around the corner to sneak a peek at me, and I held it in, and held it in, until I couldn’t see my mom anymore before I wailed out loud. The second thing is going to kindergarten, the teachers love me, but I just don’t like going to kindergarten, probably, because I’m afraid I’ll be thrown away and never go home again, so I run away from kindergarten one at a time, and then very tug to tell my mom and dad kindergarten is not fun.
I thought everyone was like this, that everyone had so much vulnerability in their hearts to hide, and I thought I wasn’t the only one struggling with entanglement, but after growing up and understanding I realized that no, not everyone has a heart full of things in their eyes. I envy those who are innocent and sincere, who are so open inside, who are brave enough to say what they want and what they don’t want, who don’t have to hide what they like and what they don’t like, and I just admit that it’s just that I can’t ……
I know that the more I need to love the more I have to be brave and give, love is like this, so is friendship. The company’s main goal is to provide the best possible service to its customers. And I did, and you didn’t, so I hurt. I know it’s not right, people can’t use their own standards and ways to demand others, but I can’t do it, I always treat people the way I want to be treated, and expect to be treated in return, I always feel that the so-called “heart” is the care that does not need to be said. I know I’m immature and I’ve gotten myself into a lot of trouble, and the more I do, the more I want to cover up my flaws and say, “I’m fine,” with wide eyes.
Friendship and love are the same, there are always people in this world you want to love but can’t, there are always people you care about who don’t really want to care about you, whose concerns he can’t see, and people who don’t have the means to love you and care about you in the same way you do. So too serious you lose. The more delicate the mind is in this world the more it bears, and the more it doesn’t care the more people will take care of everything for you.
The child who cries has milk to eat, and I didn’t learn this from childhood.