In the eyes of many people, I am a happy woman. The company’s main business is to provide a wide range of products and services to the public. However, our near-perfect family still had an emotional crisis ……
Hao Wen and I are both secondary school teachers, but not in the same school, he teaches language and I teach music. He is very busy at work every day and is the homeroom teacher of his senior class, so we spend very little time alone as a couple. Sometimes, before I got up, he had already gone to work, and when he came back from his evening study, I was already ready to rest. Gradually, we spend less and less time together, and communicate less and less with each other, talking most about our son, completely without the warm, romantic feeling of being in love. The first time I saw the movie, I was able to see that the movie was about the seven-year itch, and that the trivial family life had made us, a couple who had been married for six years, aesthetically tired of each other prematurely.
I have relatively more time on my hands compared to Hao Wen. Moreover, my son is in full kindergarten and is only home on Saturdays and Sundays.
I have a lot of time to spend on the Internet after doing my chores and preparing for class.
Once by chance, I applied for a tiktok number and came up with a very elegant screen name – Angel’s Tears.
The first time I met a man named “Lonely Heart” on the Internet. His wit and humor caught my attention, and the more we talked, the more we became friends. It turned out that the real name of “Lonely Heart” was Zhao Xin, a 33-year-old manager of an advertising company who had been divorced from his wife for two years. I also told him something about my situation. Since then, I have become more and more fond of the Internet and more and more dependent on it. It was a happy time for me, and this kind of happiness could not be given by Hao Wen. I was obsessed, and whenever I had time, I went online to chat with Zhao Xin, and if I didn’t see him, I felt empty inside. The company’s main business is to provide a wide range of products and services to the public. The company’s main focus is on the development of a new product, which is a new product. I don’t know why I was so determined to leave the home I once owned with the clothes on my back. I left my house and most of my savings to my husband and son to make their lives better, and then I lived with Zhao Xin in name only, just like a couple, living their lives sweetly.
After the passion, it was a nightmare
After a few months with Zhao Xin, I realized he wasn’t my ideal lover. He was selfish, didn’t like my contact with other people, especially men, and didn’t even allow me to go online.
One night, we were watching TV after dinner when I got a call from my son asking me to take him to an amusement park on Saturday. The company’s main goal is to provide a platform for the development of a new product, which will be the first of its kind in the world. When I put down the phone, I saw Zhao Xin’s unhappy face. Zhao Xin doesn’t like me to meet with my ex-husband and children, and he hopes it’s best for me not to interact with them. But this is simply not possible for a woman who is a mother! For this reason, we had more than one argument.
When I got back from the amusement park, it was already 7:00 pm. I had just entered the house when Zhao Xin said, not shabbily, “She came back? I thought you had gone back with them.” When I heard him say that, I was also very unhappy, so I gave him a sentence. We argued with each other in this way. This is the most serious argument since we met. The first time I saw it, I was able to see it.
After that, it was clear to me that my relationship with Zhao Xin was not what it used to be. The company’s main business is to provide a wide range of services to the public. I always felt like he was running away from something. The company’s main business is to provide a wide range of products and services to the market.
That day was Wednesday, and Zhao Xin told me that he was going to sign a contract with a client and would be back later in the evening. So, I went shopping and eating with my colleagues. When we walked by a McDonald’s, through the floor-to-ceiling glass window, I saw a young girl feeding Zhao Xin ice cream, and even the most obtuse could see the relationship between them. So Zhao Xin had betrayed me! I was surprisingly calm at the time, and continued shopping with my colleagues without moving until after 9:00 pm.
Zhao Xin hadn’t come back yet.
I sat under a lamp, waiting for him while I thought hard about us. I went back and forth in my mind like watching a movie, from the time we met until now. When we first got together, we could say that we let passion overwhelm us. When this passion and romance was gradually drowned out by reality, conflicts and frictions occurred between us. Now, this conflict and friction has seriously affected our normal life, making us more and more unable to see each other. At this point, I deeply appreciate how Hao Wen felt at the beginning, and I feel more and more sorry for Hao Wen and my son. I realized that after six years of marriage, Hao Wen had left a deep imprint on my heart. However, I destroyed this family with my own hands!
So, I made a decision – to break up with Zhao Xin. When I told him about this decision, he was silent for a moment and agreed. The breakup with Zhao Xin was more or less a loss for me. As others have said, after the passion comes the nightmare.
When we wake up from the dream, can we start over with our love
Then, with the help of my friends, I approached two more boyfriends, but I was always dissatisfied. When I was with them, I would unconsciously compare them to HoW. In contrast, I miss more and more those uneventful times with Hao Wen, whenever the boundless emptiness and loneliness came to me, the familiar smiling faces of Hao Wen and his son often appeared in my mind. What I couldn’t let go of was: why did I fall into the affair unknowingly, but I was powerless to resist? I repeatedly asked myself: Was the divorce too hasty? This question haunted me like a poisonous snake, causing me a lot of pain. Whenever I hear the song “How Much Love Can I Have Again”, I can’t restrain my tears, thinking of my ex-husband who was married for six years.
That’s when the idea of remarriage came to me. Through my son, I know that Hao Wen did not remarry. However, I wonder what Hao Wen’s current thoughts are.
What is the reason for this? After all, I had hurt him deeply. In fact, for remarriage, I still have concerns, I always feel that this road is very difficult to go. Two people who were once so close to each other, separated, and then start over again, in the end is not realistic? Although a broken mirror can be reunited, but after all, there is a scar, because the traces of the past are still there. After my best friend learned that I had the idea of remarriage, she said in a serious way, “Remarriage, is a repeat mistake!” She said that love in marriage is very important, if two people’s love is no longer there, living together, the heart will be more resentful and repulsive, many shadows are very difficult to digest. “You have hurt Ho Man like that, are you sure he still loves you as much as before? The problems between you can be solved by tolerance and patience? Besides, remarriage is not the best road, to bear a lot of things, but sometimes it is helpless, is the second best, already can not be too much about the quality, only compromise!” My friend’s words put me in a dilemma. In fact, I am willing to remarry for the simple reason that Hao Wen and I have a lot of common, inseparable things – son, affection and memories …… But, can Hao Wen forgive me? Can we start over with our love?
Ed: Can a once-betrayed lover be forgiven? Can a once broken relationship be started over again? Can he who was once hurt by me accept me back? — Such a question seems to be simpler if it happens to a man. The woman will say that most of the men’s betrayal is just a momentary physical impulse, as long as he returns to his heart, I still wait for him. But, the same problem if it happens to women, the end will be what? Men can tolerate a woman’s betrayal? When she turns back after being hurt, can a man cover her with his still broad shoulders?